After studying and travelling for almost three years in Europe and other Arab countries, I come to the point that wherever I go, I see/face the same, the same people, the same feelings, the same vision for better future, the same cry of babies, worries of Mothers for their sons, longing for peace and happiness, but on top and despite all these factors, we seem to be led against our own will. Unconsciously though.
How come? How come young people not wanting to go to war, to kill another man, father, someones brother, stil goes for it? Why would someone kill without knowing whom is he killing and how the fate of that man affects larger group of people behind the scenes and fields of war?
How come, we have created such a system of governing our life that wecant do anything about? How come do we Claim Democracy when there is no democracy? We are supposed to be smart species of this planet but alas, we seem to be very self-destructive.
I observe the development of my own country, of my own neighbourhood and society. My God, it is terible to imagine what we are going for. Total Mechanistic values driven by the current economic system.
I see our tradition values of sharing tie with the other, of caring, help and just a easy life - shading away. Giving way to the dominating economy that forces everyone to rush, to worry for tomorrows day, to be away from his/herself, family and always be nervous.
What is it brining?
I hear our Government officials talk of Sustainable Development, Wellbeing of the societ - meanwhile allowing IMF, WorldBank, McDonalds and othet International Corporations penetrate the lives of people and painfull shall be the consequences of all that. How to reach the ears and mind of them - I dont know.
Few become rich and they take it as an Indicator of Growth and economic stability, they Build Big palaces, Hotels and Shppoing malls - claiming we are Developing - while on the other side of the stret there are women, old women and kids siting and begging..what apicture of Growth is that? It has become soo technical....

It was just my thoughts and reflections on what is happening in my country and the typical case in many othercountries.
I hope, I strive and do my best to raise the awartness of at least very samll group of people, to share this thughts, and You, dear Reader of mine, may also think about it and give your thoguths.

I started reading the book by Pauho Coehlo "Eleven Minutes", oh, this book is just the whole world of surprises and questions...going through each page I find myself sitting motionless and with slight headache and warmth in my forehead....reading the life of Maria "main charachter of this book" I just start see and understand the lives of so mnay people I used to juidge, of so monay friends I used to misunderstand....
here are some notes from her diary: "all my life, I though of love as some kind of voluntary enslavement. Well, thats a lie: Freedom only exists when Love is present. The person gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly.
and the person who loves wholeheartedly feel free.
that is why, regardless of what I might experience, do or learn, nothing makes sense. I hope this time passes quickly, so that I can resume my search for myself - in the form of a man who understand me and does not make me suffer.
But what am I saying? In Love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.
It hurt when I lost each of the various men I fell in love with. Now, though, I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone.
That is the True Experience of Freedom: Having the most important thinbg in the world without Owning It."

I think her thoughts reflect what most of us go through and think about.
I am still in search of my own answers to her questions, I am still in this state of not knowing...how can one person sitting acrros the world, effect another being that much...
"Souls of two persons meet before the Bodies Meet" - that is the way perhaps it is for me..
I have met you..I saw yopu then...we talked, spent time and now we are too far,, oceans and deserts in between..but the heart constantly calls for what it has tasted once...

Hey everybody,

there are times I feel bad that I am not able to even visit the site because have not much time and possibility...
It has been a big storm and strong wind in Khujand today and it wiped off so many roofs of the houses here...that is sad...

I am sometimes talking of Tajikistan, giving you some fresh first hand news, not the ones that this Brainwashing, falls Media currently giving...There are many good things happening in Tajikistan, I see the positive development of Youth, organizing NGOs, activities, social projects and also Debates taking place in Fergana Valley..Last week I have been to the Debate Forum in Kyrgizstan, where came young people from Central Asian Countries and discussed the probelms we are facing: Multi Ethnical problems with Uzbekistan - Tajiks, border problems and role of international organizations in Fergana Valley..it has been very fruitfull and learning because we came to the solution that there is no need and use of fighting all the time provoking and increasing the anger of people. The reason for these conflicts we got is> the failure of our Politicians and Presidents not being able to peacfully talk and come to consensus and the result is People, innocent people suffering...Innocent people diyng from land mines in the border that Uzbek Goverment has put. from 2001 it is officialy registered that Uzbeks have put more than 70000 land mines in the borders of Tajikistan, having 265 people, villagers, kids and mothers killed unfairly. Why? why dow we become so Cruel? I hope very much that those young people I met during the debate will be the ones in future I or other tajiks will be dealing with, I hope this kindheartedness will remain, I hope that they understand that we are one and this world is just a Guest house where we are invitied for a while but never stay too long...

I am just Praying and creating what I beleieve is good.,

Thanks

Well,
I yesterday came back from ym trip to Kygizistan.. wow.. that was a thing..
I was taking part in Communicative Interactive Method of Teaching Symposium arrange by Aga Khan Foundation..
I have met so many interesting people form my neghbour countries, Uzbekistan, Kazakhstan and Kyrgizistan..
I felt good to learn more about these peoples lives, stories and just to get more contacts..

One of the impressing things I found was "Suleimans Mountain", Oh god, that was a real creation. it is high up in the middle of the city Osh, with its stunning view, maginficient power of silence and fresh air with bit wind blowing from all around..

hey there guys,
it is me again with some thoughts.
just about to crash with all these events in the world taking place.
what is going on?
why do we keep getting proud of developing and buying more weapens? isnt it crazy that we all are getting smarter in fiunding better ways of killing and destroying another beings?
for example:
Putin a president of Russian has rtecently before his election held a conference or a meeting witht eh journalist where HE: With such a Pride and Serious Voice declared that Russia for the last 15 years has increased its economy due to the Export and production of Weapons and that is a subject of his pride and asdditional score for the election. Stupid.

For how long will we all just stare at these politicians who keep forcing their own ideas and interest???

It just touched me deeply.

Hope it will change sometime soon.